I see the message time after time,
It\'s not like it\'s a crime,
It\'s simply that I\'m Done wasting both our time.
You dream of him,
there you are again,
just like last weekend.
I give my self control for you,
So why? I\'ve decided not to try,
I give up on you, Goodbye.
You\'re nowhere around but all I see,
Tell me how could this be,
Taking up my mind,
and all my time,
You are the one who completes me,
Without you, what\'s life for?
You leave me wanting more,
I want to hold you in my arms,
not to go too far.
Don\'t wanna break this glass,
That holds me and you so close,
Of everything you mean the most.
Then at night I dream of you,
That\'s how I know it\'s true,
I don\'t have control,
Only you do.
Of my mind and of my soul,
When your away is a hole,
But when you\'re here,
Then I\'m whole.
Even when it seems,
All is lost and you are gone,
I still have sweet dreams.
It breaks my heart,
How ever did this start?
First I came to you,
Then you came crying,
We helped each other,
That\'s all I remember.
What I still don\'t know,
The time I can\'t see...
Then how could this be?
I love you.
I know I mean it,
it\'s from my heart,
But how when we\'ve had such a short start,
Should I over-think it, Or let it be.
I love you now,
That\'s all that I see,
Knowing that we may never be,
I lay in pieces all scattered about me,
I miss you, that\'s one way I know,
Every second we\'re apart I\'m haunted by your ghost.
There are so many things I know in my heart,
I don\'t even know where I should start,
I saw you standing there,
Wanted to talk to you but i didn\'t dare,
Nothing was quite right,
Maybe that\'s the source of my eternal fright,
I wanted to hold you close,
I wanted to show you I want you the most.
You, that\'s why I was there,
Wanted to dance with you but I didn\'t dare,
I saw you walk across the room,
Wanted to follow but I didn\'t move,
I thought to myself of memories past,
Thought about how they didn\'t last.
I think about the last time it occured,
Painful emotions slowely stirred,
I didn\'t want hurt again,
So I ran, Now I sit about to cry,
All I can think to myself is why?
BehindYourWords, InYourEyes by painangel, literature
Literature
BehindYourWords, InYourEyes
All I want is you by my side,
But it's one sided I see it in your eyes ,
That's when the tears run,
that's why I cry,
I know I'll never have you no matter how hard I try.
Still everything you give to me,
It blinds me and confuses me,
I can not see,
It makes me think this could posibly be.
I just want a chance, please set me free,
I want us from you and me.
Summer Rain
February 24, 2001
If I just take time to kill the pain,
Like walking through the summer rain,
I know that nothing would be the same,
That my life has not been in vain.
Feel it coming down to clense me,
Clear my eyes so that I can see,
Clear my mind so I can breath,
Take this troubled mind to ease.
Walking in the pooring rain,
On a long mid-summers day,
Hear the music begin to play,
Know that then I'll be happy.
Take a thought back in my mind,
When all I had was more than time,
Seeing now that all is fine,
Just for one second, for all time.
Drowning The Pain
April 9, 2000
I sit and drown my pain not in plesure but in sound,
It's loud, hard and thundering, it pounds,
So does my heart, my head, it's all around,
Slowely the beating pushed the pain down.
It's frantic crying calms my soul,
It'll never fill this hollow hole,
When it's gone the darkness again will call,
It holds me up, above, I fall.
It drowns my thoughts with ecstacy,
Nothing else exsists just it and me,
My every pleasure thought is then set free,
I don't have to worry, just be.
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